edited to add:  look around - i think all of your old favorite stuff is still here and now there is also lots of new stuff.  and don’t miss the page links above my header at the very top of the site - that’s where you’ll find all of my links that you used to see on the right.  to comment click on “comments” to email me privately click on “call me crazy” on the “silly me” page.  if you can’t get something to work - let me know.
because i’m …

85. i hate divisive statements, things, people. almost didn’t put the abortion one for this reason. decided giving my reason for it, outweighed the shocknawe of the statement.
86. i love letterman. not just a little.
87. i have terrible postpartum. i get down, but the real problem is, i get angry.
88. i don’t care what anybody says (here’s another one of those divisive statements…) zoloft in those times, is allowed by God to balance me. get help if you have the same problem. your marriage, your health, and the mental stability …

 written in 2006
1. i have baby #4 growing in my belly!
2. this will be our last, short of a miracle.
3. i always wanted this many babies.
4. everybody said after i had one baby i would change my mind. ha ha. i said, ha ha.
5. i love coffee.
6. i have no sense of humor.
7. i married a man who is almost all sense of humor.
8. i get 4-5 hours of broken sleep a night.
9. i have a minimum of 6 years left of that much sleep.
10. i have made a conscious …

i would like to take a moment to address some concerns about having parker4. and i figured this was as good a place as any to do just that.FAQs
yes, it is hard. yes, it is even harder having several so close together (so i hear) although, i wouldn’t really know, since this is the only reality i have to draw from. no, they don’t get as much as they would have if there were only one or two of them. yes, i have to sacrifice - time, money, wants, alone …

i would like to take a moment to address some concerns about having parker4. and i figured this was as good a place as any to do just that.FAQs
yes, it is hard. yes, it is even harder having several so close together (so i hear) although, i wouldn’t really know, since this is the only reality i have to draw from. no, they don’t get as much as they would have if there were only one or two of them. yes, i have to sacrifice - time, money, wants, alone …

  (written by my honey)
Biography
IN THE BEGINNING:
We began to be us in the summer of 1999. Before that time we were me and her…or something. Anyway, 1999 places me in northeast Arkansas working for and Suzanne in southeast Arkansas working for a children’s home. Through the providential hand of God, we somehow ended up together after several years of a sometimes shaky friendship. To make a long story a little less long…it was love at 148th sight (all figures approximate). We were married in 1999.
We bumped along for a couple of years, working hard …

written when i was pregnant with my 4th child.
my pregnancy in numbers
this is my 4th child in 4 years.
when this baby is born i will have a 5 yr old, a 3 yr old, and a 1 yr old. within a month, i will have a 5 year old, a newborn, a 4 year old birthday party and a 2 year old birthday party.
i have had 5 periods since december of 2000 - 6 years.
when the doctor asks me when the first day of my last period was, my answer …

i’ve started watching the calories in the foods i eat, with the loose plan of actually losing weight along the way.
no wonder the pounds aren’t just fallin’ off.
1 poptart, 1, mind you, not the 2 that come in the foil wrapper, 1 poptart is 200 calories!
1 muffin is 150.  1 muffin.  don’t ask me how many i usually eat in a setting.
good grief. 

sunday after church i told the kiddos it was chore time.
and my middlest said, “but…  but…  but on sunday… God… didn’t do any work.”
(initially, daddy was on their side, but then he taught them where Jesus said that the sabbath was for man, not man for the sabbath.  so, HA!  my 4 year old!  round 2 went to mama, as she sat in a thoroughly cleaned house sunday night!)

a year ago today i was trying out my updating the world on my 6th week of pregnancy and waiting for a job that didn’t happen.  we still had no clue that we’d be leaving our little community of close-knittedness to go it alone.  we had already registered our first for public schools.  we were meeting weekly with our small group that we were leading in our house. 
since then we have… moved away from a house that was 2500 square feet to a duplex.  left all of our friends behind.  changed jobs.  …

   
                              
this is for those of you in a place of difficulty right now.  and if you have 2 children that are under 2 that’s probably you.
i had a conversation with a new friend the other day that just had her 3rd child.  her oldest just turned 3 right after her 3rd was born.  and she had laughter in her heart that overflowed.  how is that possible?  she said something that goes with what i’ve been planning to post for a while.  she said, “once you give up yourself, this …

me:  “what do you wanna be when you grow up?”
the oldest:  “i wanna do what daddy does.  i wanna work on computers.”
the middlest:  “i wanna be a rock star!”
and somehow, they’ll both be just like their daddy…

this morning my second born said he wanted to write a letter to Jesus.  and on a windy day we could send it up to Him.
after telling him that’s an awesome idea, but that Jesus can see it right now, that we don’t have to send it up he said he wanted to write it now.
and he did.

                                  
and then he asked me to put Jesus’ name on it, put it in an envelope and stick it on the fridge.  “we can keep it there everyday until Jesus comes back on His pony …

i’ve mentioned before that our church has 3 different types of services (the main, the edge, and encounter)  we’ve tried the main, and the edge and decided yesterday that maybe we would try encounter.  we had heard it was a little more traditional and we thought as pearl said, “maybe there will be more families/freaks with 6 kids and one income.”  so off we went.  we came in late (always).  and immediately i thought, “maybe we should slip out and go to one of the other services.”  the people were almost …

one of my frequented blogs linked here the other day and i got all inspired to make something other than a quilt.  i have never made clothes.  except in gifted and talented in the 6th grade - and it was terrible from what i remember.  but, like i said, i got inspired.  and look what i did!!

                                 
notice the buttons up the back…

                                 
and here’s the ruffle detail in front at the neckline…
                                 
ok, i took one of my old long sleeved button-down shirts.  so i spent nothing.  and i didn’t have to …

a totally unposed, unprompted, fight-free game of toss the tinfoil ball.
                                  

and did i mention my littlest turned 4 months old the other day?
                                    

what happened to the baby i used to know?
a few short months ago…
                                 
and last night…
                               

look what happens when mama cleans out the closet and daddy gets bored.