all four children are sleeping. and i’m not holding any of them.
this is further amazing because my babiest is in our room in the bassinet. our girl is spending her first night in her own big girl bed in her own room. the boys, although they each have a bunk, are asleep in the same bed together. and my oldest cried when i moved his sister to the other room tonight. he didn’t want to be without her.
we’ve talked for awhile about letting our daughter have her own pink girly room. and our newest will eventually move into the crib that is in the boys’ room. we’ll eventually decorate their rooms all cutesy. i’m excited for them! and for me in this very moment. and i so deserve it. today was a day. my babiest cried today all day. all day. no consoling him. and when i had dressed my girl for the 500th time and had to wash her again after getting into the weed killer – that was it. i walked into the laundry and screamed at the top of my lungs. today was the first day i’ve completely broken down after giving birth. and that’s a big deal – with the first 3 there were frequent times that i felt absolutely swamped. i lived in overwhelmed land. and somehow, like i’ve said before, the more kiddos i’ve had the easier it’s gotten. crazy, isn’t it? anyway, today i screamed. amazingly not at anybody just about everybody. and then i got over it. that’s also a fairly big deal because i used to not be able to get over it and have a good day afterwards.
so, here’s to peacefully sleeping babies and a mama that’s ever so thankful.
