waiting is so hard.
today is the first day that we could even possibly hear back from the interview with entergy. it’s been 2 weeks today. pearl’s was the first interview – on monday. they interviewed through thursday and they have fridays off. then the main guy hiring was on a week long trip to houston. so they said it would probably be this week. we’ve done pretty well waiting the 2 weeks, but today is hard. and logically, i know they’re probably not going to call the new hire monday morning when they have a week’s worth of catching up to do. and i’ve discovered in the 2 hours i’ve been up that i’m doing everything i can to distract myself – reading about labor and pregnancy, getting online – and that it’s not working, i’m just pacing the floor in my mind… but i know that’s a sign of my not trusting God. when my oldest boy asks me for a treat and i tell him to wait until i finish what i’m doing he usually starts whining and throwing a fit. and my immediate response to him is, “can you trust me, please, that i will do what i said i’m gonna do? just chill out, get involved in something else, and when i call you it will be a mini-surprise.” i’m reflecting God’s response to me. and, now, i’m modeling my son’s response to Him. i tell my boy to think about how many times i’ve lied to him or intentionally let him down and to rely on those things. i need to do the same. i need to look up the verses about being my rock. and that i will wait upon the Lord. and i need to remember the things He’s done so many times before. and ultimately trust that the outcome of this job is not the end-all. that God’s plan for our lives is larger than where we work – except maybe who we can encourage in our surroundings. Your will, Lord.
thank y’all for listening to my ramblings, but it helps me to work through where i am to where i need to be.
